On Loss and Grief

  

The agonizing rip 

of the veins in your heart 

As more blood rushes in, 

hoping to fill the holes 

That won’t stop forming 

along side the bad news

That won’t stop coming. 

The muscles in your face aching 

Begging you to rest your tears 

And let the night swallow you 

 for only a few hours 

in hopes of any peace  

Waking and praying 

that it all was just a nightmare

Before realizing 

 it all is a nightmare 

from where you cannot wake. 

Frantically holding 

Onto anything that isn’t slipping 

Through your desperate fingers 

Yearning for the memories 

Which now live stagnant 

in the walls around you 

Years go by 

the pain fades enough 

For you to survive 

In a world that moves 

far too quickly 

But you won’t forget 

that friend named Loss 

Who changed you so much 

 from the soul you used to be.